Insanity

Insanity Is Doing the Same Thing Over and Over Again and Expecting Different Results

I'm officially textbook insane.

I was supposed to go with my nephew's wife,son & mother in law to a nearby historic town tomorrow. We made arrangements last week. I texted them today to make sure we were still on but, sadly no. They suddenly have other things to do. Maybe in a "couple of weeks".  But then again, in reality, probably not. 

Just more people I'm not a priority for.  It hurts my feelings.  Lots of things hurt my feelings.

When will I learn there is no one in my life anymore I can can't on.  No one. 

I won't ask again.  And embarrassingly, if they ask I'll say yes because sometimes I get so lonely that my pride doesn't even exist anymore. 

But I'm still insane.