One day last August, I woke up 65 years old. Gray hair, needs-a-forklift-to-get-me-off-the-floor, medicare eligible.
Most of the time I don't fully feel it. I don't think of myself as old but if I wanted a job I couldn't get one. Age discrimination is alive & well. For the record, I do have a job...I work part time at a kitchen store. 12 hours a week. Savings. But I'd hate to find a way to make a living right now. I'm grateful I'm past that time, at least for now. If we believe the gloom & doom being preached at us now, the October of my life is pretty good. I worry about Steve & Grayson & Layne tho.
I had a nurse come by a couple of weeks ago to do a health evaluation on me & I'm basically in pretty good shape. All the tests were good. Her evaluation said my BMI is just under 27 & normal is up to 25.9. Losing 10 pounds could put me in that level. I know I've dropped weight over the last years & I weigh less than I did in high school. (Always a chubbette) I can feel it but still think it's not enough. I still have a Baze belly & doubt that will ever fully go away. But that number for some reason gave me the most confidence. I want those 10 pounds gone by the end of the year. We'll see. Really, the only other thing she suggested wat talking to doctor about falling. That's because I fell last year & broke my wrist. But then I tripped over a raised sidewalk & face planted so I'm not really worried about that.
The thing I am worried about is my diabetes A1C. It should be below 7 & it was 6.99 last time. Way too close to the line. I was taking an injectible med called Trulicity that had me close to 5 but although the Medicare is great for medical, it will not pay for that med. And it's $800 a month so I can no longer afford. That's a really annoying thing & I've written to my congressmen (for all the good that does) & requested they look into it. Yeah, right. I looked for email addresses for the manufacturing company, Lilly, but they have none on their website. I looked up company officers & board of directors & they are all hiding very well. They only have a phone number to call & I'm going to call to see if I can get some email addresses.
I work with 2 college girls at the store & they make me feel old too. They are going to Hawaii & Europe over the summer. I'll be working & staying home. Something wrong with that picture. I'm really kidding about that though. I don't care much for traveling anymore so I'm good being a homebody. But I still feel old.
I also find as I've gotten older I have less tolerance for a lot of people's BS (like,say, a Beto t shirt, during election season) & politics on my Twitter account & to be fair conservatives preaching the end of the world while wanting us all to pay for a TV site that preaches fair & unbiased when they are just the other side of the liberal mask. And a lot of noise bugs the snot right out of me.
I guess old age will suit me. I'd like a 3 wheel bicycle but don't feel old enough mentally but I'd sure enjoy it I think. Maybe a little later. A blue one with a big basket that'll let me ride around the neighborhood & to Walgreens without having to cross any major streets. I'm truly not sure I can ride a 2 wheeler anymore.
I always say this but I really am trying to do better. I like my job & want to keep it. That BMI number is the best thing I've read about my weight. And Tuesday I'm meeting with a new doctor, hopefully one who will respect me with time & listen to me & evaluate meds & see what we can do about the diabetes. I'm ready for warmer weather so I can walk & spring & summer when I eat less. Those 10 pounds are my enemy & must be annihalated.
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