Old?

One day last August, I woke up 65 years  old.  Gray hair, needs-a-forklift-to-get-me-off-the-floor, medicare eligible.  

Most of the time I don't fully feel it.  I don't think of myself as old but if I wanted a job I couldn't get one.  Age discrimination is alive & well.  For the record, I do have a job...I work part time at a kitchen store.  12 hours a week.  Savings. But I'd hate to find a way to make a living right now. I'm grateful I'm past that time, at least for now.  If we believe the gloom & doom being preached at us now, the October of my life is pretty good. I worry about Steve & Grayson & Layne tho.

I had a nurse come by a couple of weeks ago to do a health evaluation on me & I'm basically in pretty good shape.  All the tests were good.  Her evaluation said my BMI is just under 27 & normal is up to 25.9.  Losing 10 pounds could put me  in that level.  I know I've dropped weight over the last years & I weigh less than I did in high school.  (Always a chubbette)  I can feel it but still think it's not enough.  I still have a Baze belly & doubt that will ever fully go away.  But that number for some reason gave me the most confidence.  I want those 10 pounds gone by the end of the year.  We'll see.  Really, the only other thing she suggested wat talking to doctor about falling.  That's because I fell last year & broke my wrist.  But then I tripped over a raised sidewalk & face planted so I'm not really worried about that.

The thing I am worried about is my diabetes A1C.  It should be below 7 & it was 6.99 last time.  Way too close to the line.  I was taking an injectible med called Trulicity that had me close to 5 but although the Medicare is great for medical, it will not pay for that med.  And it's $800 a month so I can no longer afford.  That's a really annoying thing & I've written to my congressmen (for all the good that does) & requested they look into it.  Yeah, right.  I looked for email addresses for the manufacturing company, Lilly, but they have none on their website.  I looked up company officers & board of directors & they are all hiding very well.  They only have a phone number to call & I'm going to call to see if I can get some email addresses.  

I work with 2 college girls at the store & they make me feel old too.  They are going to Hawaii & Europe over the summer.  I'll be working & staying home.  Something wrong with that picture.  I'm really kidding about that though.  I don't care much for traveling anymore so I'm good being a homebody.   But I still feel old.

I also find as I've gotten older I have less tolerance for a lot of people's BS (like,say, a Beto t shirt, during election season) & politics on my Twitter account & to be fair conservatives preaching the end of the world while wanting us all to pay for a TV site that preaches fair & unbiased when they are just the other side of the liberal mask.  And a lot of noise bugs the snot right out of me. 

I guess old age will suit me.  I'd like a 3 wheel bicycle but don't feel old enough mentally but I'd sure enjoy it I think.  Maybe a little later.  A blue one with a big basket that'll let me ride around the neighborhood & to Walgreens without having to cross any major streets.  I'm truly not sure I can ride a 2 wheeler anymore.

I always say this but I really am trying to do better. I like my job & want to keep it.  That BMI number is the best thing I've read about my weight. And Tuesday I'm meeting with a new doctor, hopefully one who will respect me with time & listen to me & evaluate meds & see what we can do about the diabetes.  I'm ready for warmer weather so I can walk & spring & summer when I eat less. Those 10 pounds are my enemy & must be annihalated.