Friday, December 23, 2022

But only in my dreams...

2 more days and the holidays are over. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve.  And I have made it through another year.

The loneliness is overwhelming.  I miss my family.  Friends are nice but it's not the same.  And I have Steve but he has his own family now & I like them all very much but I'm not comfortable in chaos & that's all on me.  They asked me to come down once but I declined so they never asked again.  And I'm actually ok with that.

A couple of years ago I met Hope's family down in Austin & it was nice but they live in Arizona. And they are chaos too. 

Growing up, on Christmas Eve we'd eat supper & clean up & open presents.  And on Christmas morning Santa came.  I miss those days.

I'll be home for Christmas...but only in my dreams.

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